I think I should take a moment to focus on something else besides my crazy diet.

Okay I got nothing.

But I think it's important recognize the benefits of making a decision and sticking with it. Many things in my life right are hinging on making a decision. The hardest part of it is that it's not my decision at all...just one that I have to support.
At what point do you feel confident about waiting for God to do His work verses just wasting time? How do you know that God is all aboard with your plan or thinks that you are doing the right thing? Some people say that God wants you to be patient and wait for him to open doors in your life. Others say that God expects you to make changes on your own. And, can I dare ask this question, will prayer lead me to the right answer?

I've always been a big fan of change. I actually crave it. Post highschool, I got the itch to move every two years. I've been in Arkansas for four. I'm comfortable with the atmosphere of change...learning how to adapt to a new environment or new people.

I know that not everyone is like me.

Perhaps that is what prompted this diet. Maybe I decided to change my body because I have no control of the change (or un-change) in the rest of my life.

So I will stick to my decision to change my weight and...while I am writing this I'm getting the urge to acknowledge something...what would happen if I was as convinced about the benefits of prayer as I am about the benefits of vanilla, strawberry, and nasty.


Weight: 161
Attitude: pensive
hopeful: still